I would have liked to make a different film

In a voiceover the filmmaker reports on the sexual abuse she had to endure as a child and teenager. She talks about the consequences that such violence can cause. An experimental video image reinforces the spoken word. Photographs from the past: pictures from a living room that no longer exists. The family appears as a gap. A green couch in the older photos and a green couch as a reconstructed sculpture. Images as projections in different places: painful memories that reappear in the present. In psychiatric rooms, studio spaces or shared flats.